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NotBlue
20:47 / 03.05.02
Deleted then decided not to.

I a 25 I have never been stronger.

I was listening to mic tapes I made wqhen I was 17/18 today from the radio/tapes(home taping is killing radio folks!)/cd's of that age, I was never weaker/stronger mentally or weaker physically, but I feel I have lost so much since then, so many opportunities lost/deliberatley fucked up/killed/unable to grasp but nowadays I'm a working man with two degree's behind me, financially, independently, physically and mentaly stronger but my emotional inuition seems to have stalled.


I don't even know what hte question I am posing is, but does anyone else get this?
 
 
Murray Hamhandler
20:57 / 03.05.02
Maybe it's a trade-off. I feel about the opposite. Education stalled, financially insecure, much less capable in "real world" matters than I'd like, but much stronger emotionally and more in touch w/my emotions (not to get too touchy feely) than I've ever felt. So I feel good about myself but not so much about my place in the world, if you get my drift. Although, thinking about it now, I've known people who've found a balance between the two. I'm still searching...
Arthur Sudnam, II